I was just thinking about this time last year and thinking about everything that has happened in the past year, and everything the Lord has been teaching me and wondering if/how I am different. Has my walk deepened with the Lord? What are the things I have learned? Have those things just been knowledge or have they become fleshed out as wisdom? Just a thought, and I KNOW the Lord has been doing some miraculous things in my heart, transforming it bit by bit…but I’ve still got a long way to go. I posted this blog about a year ago …

October 25, 2010

• “Self is the opaque veil that hides the face of God from us. It can be removed only in spiritual experience, never by mere instruction. We may as well try to instruct leprosy out of our system. There must be a work of God in destruction before we are free. We must invite the cross to do its deadly work within us. We must bring our self-sins to the cross for judgment. We must prepare ourselves for an ordeal of suffering in some measure like that through which our savior passed when He suffered under Pontius Pilate….In human experience that veil is made of living spiritual tissue; it is composed of the sentient, quivering stuff of which our whole beings consist, and to touch it is to touch us where we feel pain. To tear it away is to injure us, to hurt us and make us bleed.”-Pursuit of God, A.W. Tozer

As I re-read this post…I was thinking…man…I feel like that is what the Lord has been doing in me for the last year, especially the past 6 or so months…trying to get rid of me, “self”…and it has and will continue to be painful, I do feel like I have bled at times for sure. But man…I can see what he has done and is continuing to do and uproot in me and I am kinda overwhelmed by His grace…that He would care that much…ya know…like He genuinely desires that we be continually sanctified…and he will gladly use anything in that process. Its good and encouraging and challenging sometimes to think about where you were a year ago…5years ago…and see what all the Lord has done…sure the millions of ways we’ve screwed up are in there too….but they are overshadowed by His grace ya know. Anyways…that’s my thought for the day. Loving this fall weather btw!!